How Breaking My Phone, Broke Me

 

Thrifted blazer. Tags were still attached. Tag price $249 #winning

Hi there. It’s been a while. Life has been happening on my end as I am sure it has on your’s as well. But we are still here!! So let me get to the meat of this post.

This past Sunday, I was out enjoying an adventurous evening with my youngest daughter Alivia. She was attempting to ride in this Little Tikes car that she has had since she was a year old and she is now 7, imagine that. Anyway, she is my all things picture taker so I asked her to quickly snap a picture for me. While she was trying to park her car and get prepared to honor my request, my phone slipped out of her hand and splattered all on the concrete (NO, I didn’t have a secure case, I know). She immediately started crying and apologizing. I had to gather my feelings and let her know that I was not upset with her at all and that it was actually all my fault. Our enjoyable evening then became a frantic search for me another phone or a way to mend my phone’s brokenness. Then I became mad at myself. I should’ve been more focused on enjoying our afternoon stroll than worrying about getting that perfect IG picture. As we walked back home after the incident I felt lost.

Lost about my phone and lost about life in that very moment. I truly felt like that broken phone was what I needed. I have said for a while now I needed a break from social media and from chaos and because I wasn’t strong enough to take it for myself, God helped his crazy, little daughter out. Verizon couldn’t help that day so I had to order a new phone. The phone that would take two days to get to me. I remained calmed and focused on making sure I could still use whatever means I had to communicate with my mom and daughters throughout the day. Day 2 came and the delivery person did not leave my phone at my home or the office. Instead of panicking yet again, I continued to enjoy the break that God was clearly giving me. So during this time I decided to think about what life without a phone for these past few days has shown me. It basically allowed me to disconnect from social media’s reality and also showed me myself in real life.  I have allowed social media to take over so much of my life these past few months. Don’t get me wrong, I love the outlet and being able to connect with old and new friends, blogger boos, family and grow different businesses. But none of that can replace the special time, memories and bonds that I have been able to share with my children these past 3 days. One moment I will treasure is coming home from work on Tuesday and my almost 14-year-old daughter, Ayana asked me to sit on the couch and watch a teen, chic movie with her. The movie was actually awesome with a great moral lesson about friendships. We watched the entire movie without any distractions. To have her cuddling with me without either of us on our phones was amazing. Even having uninterrupted story time at night with my youngest has made her world.

Check out my band aid accessory. A broken wine glass caused this accident of course!

I am sure people take mental breaks from social media all the time and that is great if you can and do but if not, sometimes life will force you to. I truly know that God listens to me because when I am not strong enough to do things on my own, he does them for me. Even now that I am back on social media, it will be with limits. I was able to focus more on my 9 to 5 and be more productive at work and at home. I was able to think more clearly about the direction that I want my businesses, relationships and life to go. I realized that I was getting lost in the chaos instead of standing out and creating peace. It hasn’t been a break just from social media, it has been a break from all things stressful, even people. Refocusing on things that are important and growing from the difficulties of life.

I finally got my phone yesterday and it took an act of God and two Verizon technicians to fix a glitch in order for it to work properly. FINALLY around 10pm last night, I was back in technology world. I even made my way to 5 Below and found me a nice old super protective phone case and screen for this delicate iPhone of course. Anyway, I said all that to say this. Don’t look up from your phone or computer one day and your kids are adults, parents are gone, friends are few and relationships are gone. Find a balance. Set limits. I am glad to be back but I have enjoyed being gone!

As always thanks for reading!

xo, Eve

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